No-one knows but you and Reeva.
And thus, reasonable doubt is huge in your case!
The fear I believe you were experiencing at the time, which nobody can understand,
nobody in your physically challenged position can understand.
That fear I imagine, offers up immense reasonable doubt that you had no intentions of murder, of anyone for that matter,
but rather an intrinsic ‘fight’ reaction to protect you and yours, at 3am in the darkness.
I stand behind your suffering and trust you are taken care of. Please try to survive whatever they hand down to you that you may
come out and have a loving life thereafter.