As I write this I’m sitting in a tent in the Masai Mara. It’s dark and I hear the sound of crickets. Soon the tree hyrax will start their screeching, and last night we heard the sound of a bush buck… it’s a sort of gruff sandy ‘barking’ sound.
Today I came across part of a letter which I’m going to attach to this note, I felt it had been written for you. Every day I think about you and wonder what new words I could share with you just to help you get through another day. So today I’m going to share this letter I came across which was written to another inmate. I understand that you’re a Christian, however I feel that there are certain universal truths that span all religions and all time… some of those truths are shared within this letter. I wish I knew what the quote was that had been penned on the outside of the envelope! … however one can imagine it was quite profound in that it showed he was finding his way to a better place in his mind. I want this for you, for you to find your way to finding peace and forgiveness within yourself… and finding your “why”… why we are here, our purpose and your own new purpose to face your future. One day you will walk out of there and until you do you need to keep “bending” and focusing and re focusing. Many of us care deeply for you and believe you entirely. Keep going my friend.
“As always, it was wonderful to hear from you. Yes, I did pick up on that incredible quote for Nietzsche you penned on the outside of the envelope. My first reaction was one of tremendous reassurance that this “brother” is indeed finding his way. Is that not what we all should be striving for, finding the “why” to live?
It hits at the fundamental need in all of us to have a purpose for existing, and furthermore, not to lose sight of it and to bend continually all of our energies towards its pursuit.
One of the continual realities in our lives on this plane of existence is our need to be mindful of the systems of rewards and punishments our society has necessarily put in place in its attempt to mete out justice whenever one of society’s rules, regulations, or laws appears to be broken or violated. We aspire to make such regulatory standards and the processes and procedures for implementing them fair and just, but the very fact that we flawed individuals are the ones called upon to establish, understand, and implement them necessarily means that the pathways of doing so are fraught with challenges and our judgments replete with errors. In the long run all of those errors are inconsequential, because eventually and ultimately we must satisfy only the One with absolute authority Who will in the end make the final judgment:
The tribulations that have touched Us, the destitution from which We suffer, the various troubles with which We are encompassed, shall all pass away, as shall pass away the pleasures in which they delight and the affluence they enjoy. This is the truth which no man on earth can reject. The days in which We have been compelled to dwell in the dust will soon be ended, as will the days in which they occupied the seats of honor. God shall, assuredly, judge with truth between Us and them, and He, verily, is the best of judges. – Baha’u’llah, Gleanings from the Writings of Baha’u’llah, pp. 238-239.
In the meantime, we do the best we can with whoever is called upon to run the system. Most of us just endure the errors we perceive, and go on with life until that final Day of Judgment.
However, there are also those, such as yourself, who, for many and sundry reasons that vary from case to case, may find themselves in situations where one would question their punishment.
But this example is a bit astray from the point I want to make in your case. Whatever the outcome, what we already know is that the very nature of how it has been handled, or, better stated, mishandled, so far enables you to not necessarily expect the punishment aspect of it all to be fair, even if you were to walk out of that jail a free man tomorrow. This is tragic and undeserved, for everyone behind bars.
But, my dear friend, what you will have already gained at the same time is a new trajectory of life that is firmly grounded in God’s system of rewards and punishment based on His will—the only one that, in an eternal sense, really counts—because it is grounded in absolute reality, and therefore represents absolute Truth. This fact therefore enables you eventually to set aside, both in your mind and in your heart, the imperfect system devised by mere men, and to focus for the rest of your life entirely on gaining a clearer apprehension of His will and His wish as you discover your true purpose and how you are going to pursue that magnificent ideal:
See then how wide is the difference between material civilization and divine. With force and punishments, material civilization seeketh to restrain the people from mischief, from inflicting harm on society and committing crimes. But in a divine civilization, the individual is so conditioned that with no fear of punishment, he shunneth the perpetration of crimes, seeth the crime itself as the severest of torments, and with alacrity and joy, setteth himself to acquiring the virtues of humankind, to furthering human progress, and to spreading light across the world. – Abdu’l-Baha, Selections from the Writings of Abdu’l-Baha, p. 133.
Kenya, Dec 2017