Why is it so much easier to forgive others than to forgive yourself? I guess we have compassion towards others that sometimes we lack towards ourselves. Oscar, you need to forgive yourself in order to move on. But in the meantime always remember that God has already forgiven you.
Some steps are easier than others. Most of your steps have already been hard. But you have surmounted every one of them. Regain your positivity Oscar and get climbing those steps again. One at a time. We’re all behind you.